life is made extremely difficult for men if you don't pretend sexual need for women

Just for a little while when I started getting those sexual vibes for a girl in my office, I felt so much pressure off me -- such enromous social pressures, and I realised how even with the slightest of sexual attraction for women, men would rather base their entire life on it, rather than follow their natural instincts that take them towards men.

And, I had been feeling a lot bogged down lately fighting all the social pressures of heterosexuality, especially when they were being exerted by the one I was in love with, and whose opinion counted a lot to me. So much so that I had stopped walking upright, like a real man.

Just that small sexual attraction, which I did make a big deal about by telling my peers -- and I found myself walking tall again, with an extremely masculine gait. This transformation came so subconsciously. It is clear that men need Social manhood to feel men. Because, it is not so much about having it, but if it is denied to you it very difficult for you to be in touch with your own natural manhood.