Going after girls, when there hearts are with men

All of my extremely intense relationships with other (straight) men have ended because of girls.

Inspite of the fact that all of my lovers in the past have been deeply involved with me, they insisted in seeing girls, which broke the relationship.

And, yet, I could sense that they really didn't need the girls, at least at that point in their lives. Since, they had more than what they could handle already in me. The relationships used to be really intense, mutual and demanding.

I could sense that they were doing it because of social pressures and because their ego was hurt by being in a relationship with another masculine gendered male, and also to avoid being labelled as 'gay' -- surprisingly, even when no one else knew about us, except the two of us.

I think, in most cases they did not really have girlfriends. They just invented them, in order to save their social manhood. And, even when they did, it was actually to show the world, and not because they really wanted them. But I was hurt nevertheless.

Sent to us through e-mail by a reader from Delhi.